Year 14 - Parenting Teen during the Great Metamorphosis

I feel like I've lost my sweet baby girl. People always say that it's tough to parent a teen. I have been pretty rebellious myself so I know how tough I was to my parents. I thought that with God's help (which my parents didn't have while I was growing up) and with the foundation we have given her, things would be a teeny weeny bit better. Doesn't seem so at this point in time. Feels like we are in such a deep dark hole. She's on full force rebellion mode and not seem to want to stop anytime soon and I'm not prepared to step down too. 

I lost my trust in her and I guess it applies the other way round as well. I'm also, just, lost. And so is she. 

Only You can help now, God. Help us, God. Mend the bridge that has been burnt. Remove the wedge between us. Bind us together again with Your gracious, amazing, unconditional love. I love my baby girl and it hurts so much to be in this place right now seeing how things are between us, and what's happening to her. Help me, Lord. 

Year 14 - Distance between you and us

I used to mean the world to you. Now, I'm probably just your chauffeur and chef and laundromat. Your world and your friends are of utmost importance now - what they think of you, how they feel, what they do. I don't recall you asking any of your family members how our day was or what we have been doing or how we feel on most days. And when we attempt to talk to you with that small window of time that you are actually available, you are always tired or hiding in your room or with the phone. But you on the  other hand says we you don't want to talk as you feel judged. Everything I say or do seems to be wrong in your opinion. I don't even know if I should say or do anything now. When we spend time with your brothers instead, you think that we favour them when you are not even availing yourself for us to spend time with but instead distancing yourself further ans further in the world of your friends and phone. Life has definitely been challenging for us. The pain that you have caused. I can only commit all these to God as I am just too lost to handle it on my own. Praying that you will wake up one day and just realised whom you should place your trust on and how much you are loved instead.