School woes and treats

I'm getting a bit confused on how to write my posts now. First person or third? Names or initials? I'm afraid that it will be confusing to read back later. Plus the fact that I'm losing my mind these days. Think for today, I will refer to O as Che. And I will put the age at time of writing next to it like Che5. So Kor3 will be J at 3 years old and Di0 will be B, obviously still a baby.

So, I want to write about how yesterday was Chap Goh Mei and we went to a café called Goh Kaki for dinner and came home super late. Like midnight. So Che5 and Kor3 slept super late. I didn't wake you two up but Kor was already awake maybe 7.45am. Che refused to wake up as she obviously didn't have enough sleep. And Kor was still struggling with separation anxiety and refused to get ready for school. After a lot of struggle, you two finally arrived in school super late.

So I had a date with Papa for lunch today since there was a promotion at Sakae Sushi and brought some home for you two as you both love sushi. Told you that it was for all the effort you took to go to school today. If I could only record the happiness and the smiles on both your faces. Priceless.

Also promised you two movie night if you both quickly have a bath and napped. Di was already sleepy so I nursed him to sleep but Kor wanted to do his big business at the same time. Di was not done but Kor kept screaming downstairs as he was done. Then found Che still had not shower but was reading in the room. I lost my temper and smacked her. Sigh.... After that I also lost my temper when there was a lot of commotion upstairs and pinched her face as I didn't want the noises to wake Di up. She was only trying to switch on the lights and fan to practice her keyboard. Gave her a hug and told her we will be watching Big Hero 6 and tried to cheer her up again which she did. I really hate it when I lose my temper. I have been trying to control real hard. Teaching the kids first time obedience. Explaining to them. They are really good kids. And they are only just kids.

Anyway we had a really wonderful movie night tonight with popcorn. Love moments like these.

Kids, if you ever read this in the future, do know that Mama is sorry for all the hurt I've caused you and all the fear I have instilled in you. I know I'm a monster at times. I'm still trying. I'm still learning. And I still love you all so so so much. To the moon and back.